Previously in my blog [1] I wrote about the Catalonian independentism. But now it’s time to step up our game. We Spaniards are being played out by one of the oldest tricks in the bag: hypernormalisation. But what’s this about?

Here I should really take a stop. If you know nothing about Adam Curtis and his work, you should probably spend the next 22 hours watching his material and, just skip this silly blog.

What the hell is going on?

Brace yourselves.

There´s no reality. The linear narrative is dead. This idea comes from a Russian minister: the non linear warfare.

Nothing is true

After the enlightenment we accepted the linear reasoning. And this is what the Hypernormal theory challenge. The claim is that reality is fluid, flexible and arguable. And, in essence unassailable. The main point is that we can’t understand it, that nothing makes sense. The motives behind any action are so complex that no human mind can grab it.

Let’s examine what’s going on in the “Catalonian independentism” crisis. It seems like the separatist block has exploded in pieces. Some of them travelled to Brussels, the rest remained in Barcelona. Are they divided? Is the movement broken? No, it’s not. It’s non-linear warfare.

Many sides, acting in different fronts: Brussels, Barcelona, Madrid … The idea here is the simple notion that if you insist on an idea for long enough it suddenly becomes true.

While we pay attention to this, ‘cos let’s be real, this is helping everyone, the criminals walk free in Spain.

The next steps

I’m noticing that it might seems like I approve or support the current Spanish government. I don’t. The current president has to fall. And fall hard. He and his party has been accused of a number or grave crimes, he must end in jail, with many of the party top dogs, full stop.

But, for now let’s address the existential crisis.

  1. I hate that sheat, btw.

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After so many words about the current state of my country, what to say next? What’s going on?
It’s particularly difficult to explain. Let’s take Mr. AteoTube for instance. Italian. In his 30s. Do you think he can “get it”? Nope … it’s challenging, and requires such amount of dedication that it’s ridiculous.

It’s been two very intense weeks. Politicians sending letters to each other (a legal recourse, obviously) veiled comments, strange maneuvers. And, well, a probably planned crisis that will last long. The first estimates are pointing to the 6 months mark. 6 months: of companies moving their headquartes and tax return location.


One of the main points of the separatists was that the companies, the biz, the hard cash. Will remain in the territory, given the vast superiority of the to-be-republic. Well, that has been proven to be, not exactly true. As in completely false.
At this moment 2 main banks, and hundreds of companies have move their “fiscal homes” to other territories. Madrid, Valencia, Alicante, Mallorca, Zaragoza and other cities are the new places of the bussiness.

So, that’s one. No reasonable company wants to abandon the EU in favor of a completely unexplored legal ground. They have interests to protect.


We don’t know the intent of our (current) president. What is he up to? What’s the plan? We’ll see when it’s done. And that’s not something I particularly like. We’re not kids. We deserve to know. What is the state going to do?

What it’s clear is that this situation is a war of attrition. At this moment we don’t have trenches or violence. But we’re going to endure this long standoff. This makes no sense, it’s painful and will damage Spain, and Europe. This is our current president’s motto: “to victory through lack of action”.

I’m incredibly tired of this

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Recent Spanish history

As I argued in previous posts, Spain is an ancient place. A political entity born centuries ago. What is not so old, however, is the Spanish democracy. We’re a young country in many ways. Let’s remember this moment from 1975:

… the death of Francisco Franco, the dictator. During his rule, one could argue that quite a lot of oppression happened. Catalonia and the basque country were cracked down upon. Starting at that time the new government decided to transition the Spanish kingdom into a liberal democracy.

This process was not without victims. During this time Spain suffered under the actions of 3 terrorist groups: ETA, Terra lliure and GAL. I can recall some of the killings and executions. In one occasion one of these groups tied a couple to chairs and they attached bombs to their chests making them explode in their living room.

At this point the “constitutional assembly” created the new fundational law of the Spanish state. And, right there, just under the first article, we have the acknowledgement of the “historic regions”. And then, we knew that such recognizement was a ticking bomb waiting to explode at any minute.


During my childhood years government was synonymous with the Socialist Party. For 15 years they keep the parliament and the senate. Until this happpened:

… and that’s an interesting video. As I said in previous posts due the Spanish election law, the nationalistic parties have a surprising amount of representation in the Parliament, making them fundamental to pass certain laws, like the national budget[1]. In the 90s it was clear that something was going on in Catalonia. And let me illustrate with an example:

… that, my friends is a Catalonian dub of “Dragon Ball”. When I was 13 years old I could watch the daily show only if the weather was sunny and the mountains didn’t block the transmission. And that’s how I learnt Catalonian. Years after I understood that this made no sense. Why restrict the broadcast of such a content to a single region and a minority language? Well, the answer is pretty obvious. It was a tool, an instrument, to teach kids the “neo lingua”.

9th November 2014

This not the first time the Catalonians do this show. Let’s bring our sight back and remember what happened in 2014:

… another referendum. Same validity, meaning, none. And again our state let unsung civil heroes to burn and crash alone: let’s remember the lone school principal that was sacked after refusing to open her school to perform an illegal act. Spain is packed with Quixotic figures. We fight windmills, and we die alone.

Friends and relatives

The population of Catalonia is one sixth of the Spanish citizens. Every Spaniard has contact with some Catalonian, that’s unavoidable. And … in their view, they’re heroes. They’re fighting the good fight. Their motivations seem so pure, so prudent, so righteous, that it’s difficult to oppose them. But I have. It’s time to stop, it’s time to reflect, and to come to terms with reality.

This is the time of open borders. And great opportunities wait for us. The national identity discourse is irrational and silly. I’m not proud to say this but we’re living in a “global society” and, believe me, no one cares about Catalonian exceptionalism.

About corruption

We Spaniards are famous for being considered lazy (I can’t count the number of jokes regarding naps I heard during the last 5 years) and, a tad corrupt. And, sadly, that is true. The Spanish Government is involved in, at least 3 major cases of corruption and theft.

The Catalonian government is critizicing this heavily, while at the same time they’re involved in equally severe corruption cases, as was sufficiently proven during the 3% cases, or the infamous money packed suitcases.

  1. Arguably the only law that matters, really.

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Choping nations

This is an interesting time for my homeland: Spain. Since the XV century Catalonia has been a constant source of trouble and malcontent. The claim is that “Catalonia is a nation“:

… a large body of people united by common descent, history , culture, or language, inhabiting a particular state or territory. …

… we can get into the very murky discussion about large, or perhaps history. In the case of a place that was, in essence, founded by the Carthaginians (check Barcino if you’re interested on that) But that’s not different that many other places in the Iberian Peninsula. My town, for instance has been inhabited for more than 2.2 millenia, some digs are even older than that. As so many other places in Europe, we have history by buckets. Regarding size, well, arguably there is more people in Catalonia than in the whole Iceland, so that’s a large body of people.

Let’s check the history of Spain as I know it. It’s one of the oldests nations in Europe. Born 5 centuries ago, after what we call the reconquer or reconquista it’s one of the initial bastions of what we nowadays call the “Western culture”. One would say that, back in the day, we had ballz of steelz as you can say of contemporary Poles. At the begining of the XIX century we created one of the most advanced constitutions in human history. I believe we should take a stop here. Italy, as an example, is 120 years old. Germany, as we know it nowadays, is a product of the WWI, younger than a century. Yugoslavia (as we knew it) existed for less than 50 years. Poland was an empire in the XVI century. After this, the existence of the Spanish state is a reality that we can’t discuss. However:

What we perceive as the political reality and staticism is such a wobbling entity that it’s almost comical.

States change, evolve and develop. Puerto Rico is a good example, the collapse of Argentina is also interesting, Korea (both of them) are also relevant in this discussion. Nothing is fixed. But all of these changes have a massive cost in suffering and sometimes, lives.

And, well, I’m old enough to remember this happening in the Spanish congress in February 23 of 1981:

As an european, I know that things can go bad, fast. In our history we have massive pogroms, holocausts, general random killing and, even randomer war. If you want to learn about attrocities check with the closest european, that human will give you all you need to know about apes behaving like monkeys.

In recap, and pretty obvious: political reality evolves. Societies take very long to form and stabilize and the road to chaos and civil unrest is short and fast. And, on top of everything, the idea of nation is so close to our beloved tribalism, that should be looked upon with utmost suspicion.

Here, it might seem that I’m taking a conservative position. In this issue, yes, I am a conservative. States are not toys. I don’t believe in good intentions and altruistic motivations. Nationalism is an illness that we should combat.

Catalonian independentism

Let’s be very clear. Catalonia is not oppresed by the state. Quite the contrary. Due to the electoral laws, the Spanish government has pivoted on Catalan parties for the last 20 years and that has resulted in quite a benefit for their interests. In hindsight the investments the Catalonian authorities did in education, some would say indoctrination, was the cornerstone of all this movement. Started 30 years ago they’ve build the citizens that we currently enjoy. Victims. They don’t go towards a goal, they reject and run away from what they perceive as evil and unjust. It’s, in many ways, a negative movement. It’s based in the simple idea that:

We’re not like you. Spain steals us.[1]

As the basques did with the infamous blood RH-, they claim to be genetically closer to the French that to the rest of the Spanish state. More irrational nonsense, but it’s the base of the narrative.

Spain is not a perfect state. It´s oversized and clumsy, like many European states. But it´s not the enemy. Madrid, for instance is an example of evolution and progress, ironically, under the nationalistic authority Catalonia has become smaller and poorer. Companies left the place, favoring either Madrid or Portugal. But they don´t seem to care or value that. The wellfare of their population is secondary to the identity question. And here is where I draw the line.

Let´s draw a parallel between human psyche and states. Let´s think about the question: who am I? The teen angst is almost palpable. And that, for me, is the key of this issue. That’s a completely sterile discussion. Navel gazing, self centered, and utterly neutered ideas only led to catastrophe. There’s a reason why we left such indagations behind us. We open up and act in the world. From a fake sense of victimhood where we’re constanly aggravated, we walk in the world and start transforming it.

What now?

I might lack imagination here but I can only imagine two outcomes after this.

  1. My country collapses. It wouldn’t be the first time this has happened. A shitload of suffering and pain will ensue. Every citizen will get poorer and will loose some of their civil rights.
  2. The crackdown. The state reacts (at last) and incarcerates the heads of the seccesionist movement. No force is restrained. From that point we face years of civil unrest and disorder.

In both cases we face recession. The country needs to be refounded. And our collective nightmares come true. We’re back at the hands of the authoritarians.

Gents … ¡Viva España!

  1. Information made public by the Spanish tax agency shows that this is not only a lie, but quite the contrary, the Catalonian regions are inmensly benefitted.

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The last weeks have been intense in many ways. So let’s get into detail.

Weaponizing cat GIFs

My family is big. At one point I had around 12 uncles and aunts. With their SOs and children, dogs, hobbies and all the rest. One of my aunts decided to create a whatsapp group and she added the whole bunch to it. It was a good idea. Family matters more than pretty much anything else. However there’s a catch. Given the limitted topics that can be discussed in such a narrow group of people [1], this conversation tends to follow some predictable patterns:

  • They send pictures of their children.
  • Weather comments are encouraged.
  • Random meme forwarding, mainly covering local politics are, ermh, tolerated.

And. Well, I think I get it. But this group lacked my voice. What can I say? In Warsaw the weather is nice? Or, I solved an issue in a massive entity framework codebase? Nah, not really. It’s a weird position to be in. I want to take part. But I don’t believe I have any reasonable input to these people. And then, … everything became obvious. Let’s use the hive mind, let’s … become the interneCs. And there’s just one way of doing so. By sending cat GIFs.

And this is what I learnt: you can stop any conversation in any digital media by a well placed cat GIF. Simple. Effective. Evil. And this deserves some deeper analysis. By doing so, are we improving the world? [2] Well, perhaps; who am I to answer such a deep question. What I know for sure is that it works. When they know that any BS is going to be answered with some brief movie of a cat doing catty things, somehow they loss some of their motivation. And this makes everyone lives a little bit better.

The dark ones

For the last 2 years I’ve been following the US campuses news with interest.

You must understand that I spent my university years in a tech institute. 95% boys. No beer allowed in the campus at all. It was just us, and advanced calculus. During that time I grow completely dettached of anything human[3]. Only the machine was relevant. What will it compute? What’s the intent of this piece of code? What are we trying to achieve?

During those years, I never, and I mean it, I never thought about the lack of ladies. It was the situatcja. It was reality, nothing you could argue with. 15 years after that I was hired by DICE and a new period just opened. There, the situation was different. The lady proportion was higher (but not by much)

And here is when everything started.

I was introduced to the world of the Politically Corret[5]. It was, and it is, a battle on language. Reality morphs. Timeless concepts are no longer valid. What you believed it was reasonable it’s now dead, unreasonable and bigoted. And that, … that was a shock. But … what the hell was happening?

  • Knwoledge evolves, get up with times.

This is true. I guess. Dunno. We’re just newcomers in this life race[4]. But the problem with language is that any change propossed to it is a blatant challenge on the individual conception of the world. Through this lense, accepting new terms is not exactly a cheap matter.

On the other hand, as we advance and get a more nuanced vision on everyday issues, the appearance of new words is, in essence, unavoidable.

  • Agendas, everywhere.

And here comes the problem. When you’re exposed to a new wording of a known fenomena. What’s happening? Well, in my view the problem arises with the intent of the person that is introducing this new concept. A reasonable question to ask is “what’s the intent of this individual?”. And here is where everything comes apart.

  1. The issue with feelings/awareness.
    And here is where my problem begins. I guess. But, how much data do they contain? And, again, the answer is “not much” really. More in the future.

  2. Working with new facts:
    This is the real double whammy.
    When facing new realities there is no darkness is just[6] us and the new reality. It’s painful. But at the end of the day, better for everyone. But, my question here is: how often can a new fact be uncovered? Because my intuition is that this could happen only on particularly extreme cases. In this light I tend to revert to case 1.

Smurfling songs

A couple years ago, during Christmas. In a strange Saturday morning mood. I decide to make the best kind of present to my close friends: a smurfled version of a particularly sexist song from the Spanish 60s:

  1. Mainly for civil reasons. I mean, everyone has that weird-brother in law. And I’m not different that anyone, that’s for sure.
  2. I discovered a couple years ago that the vast majority of the rethorical questions are supposed to be answered “no”.
  3. Yes, it was like become a SEAL but with an HP Unix mainframe.
  4. A reference to the red queen race, btw.
  5. At that time I discovered the idea of “feelings” in discourse.
  6. Me.

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What a beautiful weekend we had. Both Nacho-the-man-the-lengend-Banan and my brother visited us. They’ve been walking the city and trying every kind of Pierogi you can imagine. We had some drinks, a lot of meat, and had the opportunity to check the city life. Here’s the LEGEND.

I’m sure it’s been a good change of pace for both of them. My brother is enjoying slightly colder days, and Nacho just went back to some summersies shennnnannnigans. Let’s share some pictures of the trip, again, took with my faithful GP4.

On a completely random order, this is the Bald Penguing pub. A fantastic place on a very hipster (?) part of town.

and, from the other side …

They’ve been in parks, streets, restaurants, … but this was, IMO, the highlight of their visit:

Warsaw Rising

This huge place is devoted to keep the memory of the events of August 1944. After too many years of German occupation the Poles are organized and ready to face impossible odds against a retiring but extremely dangerous and hardened 3rd Reich. This museum follows a chronological route from 39’s invasion of the country to the final Soviet occupation.

They have two very informative and cool pages, the Museum main page and the more chronological and informative: Warsaw Rising … for the last link you’ll need some time and some dedication since it’s jampacked with information, graphs, even movies from the time.

The visit follows the development of the events from the Nazi invasion during the end of the 30s untill the mid 40s. They have some real debri from the royal palace in exhibition:

… cover the state of the Polish army and the challenge they faced during the first invation. And let’s not forget that they were trapped in a pincer move between the soviet army and the german army, as it’s described here:

The museum goes in very deep detail about the war and what was going on with the exiled Polish government in the UK. This is the kind of things they have on exhibition:

And a section devoted to soviet propaganda and the actions of the secret police:

… quite an informative museum. All and all, an horrifying place. Where you can discover the extent of the word “monster”. A section that shocked me were the memories of a Wehrmacht soldier describing the weeks where the Germans decided to shell the city out of existence.

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It’s been a long time since my last update. And there’s a simple reasons for that. I changed job. I moved to Poland to work with the amazing CD Projekt RED. Now I live in Warsaw and I’m part of both Gwent and the new title of CDP: Cyberpunk 2077

This city is an amazing place. It feels so close to Madrid. Vibrant, active, everything is constantly open … I’m liking it a lot.

For now you can have some of the latest pictures I took: here you have the block just next to Pawilon:

This was an interesting day. I was crossing the city south to North. I was looking for a 4th edition of Vampire. And I visited 4 different comic and games shops. None of them had the book, but I discovered new and interesting places.

Nowadays Poland is experiencing some political turmoil, but sadly I still don’t have a full grasp on the details, however I was able to capture this:

… a protest regarding the composition of the new supreme court. Pretty interesting stuff. Something that makes me think about Spain and its political system too.

It was such a warm day that Warsaw water deployed a truck to keep people hydrated:

… and last but not least, a shout out to the Polish public transport, with the lovely trams and buses:

Good stuff kids …

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Last May I decided to take swimming more seriously. After talking by my friend Carlos I just accepted that my technique sucked. As with any other sport you need to consider both your strength and your technique to do real improvements. I was obssesed with strength and had a fight with the water instead of working with it. As technique goes, I started working with the material of Total Immersion. That makes a lot of emphasis on body rotation and balance on the water. It’s good stuff if you’re new to swimming or want to explore other styles.

Obviously technique is way more influential than raw strength. This is what explains the grandmas wooshing and passing over. According to Taormina the relation is around 80% - 20%. In any case is the combination of both what makes a well rounded swimmer.

Increasing strength

I didn’t want to start lifting weights for two reasons. First I’ve never done it and I know nothing about technique. It’s easy to get injured with weights so kids, be careful. And second I somewhat dislike the gym thingy. I wanted something to do at home at my own pace and without too much hustle.

One day I crossed paths with Mr. Tsatsouline (conveniently packed in an interview with Tim Ferriss) And then, the world of the kettlebell was just revealed. Here’s the man himself explaining some presses at his gym:

And that’s it. A kettlebell. A cannonball with a handle. The simplest thing.

But as I said, I am very technique conscious about moving heavy weights. For training the basic movements I got a copy of Enter the Kettlebell and went through the drills again and again untill I was confident enough to do series of swings and get-ups and ventured a little into snatching and pressing.

Looking to expand my knowledge I checked the appropriate subreddit about it I can recommend it. It’s a nice bunch. Interestingly, in that community Tstsouline is not that much loved. But I think it’s fair to accept that he was pretty much responsible of the popularization of this form of exercise in the US.

And then I wanted a program. To apply some method to my madness and be able to track progress. A framework. One of the most recommended programs for getting real with KB is Pavel’s Simple & Sinister This is a good review of it:

That’s it, just swings and get-ups. Short and designed to be combined with other activities, it’s the complement I needed for my swimming.

ok … about all that, but are you swimming faster?

Maybe 3% faster. But I’m having a great time and it feels good.

What’s going to be the next gimmick?

Was thinking about introducing elastic bands in my traning. They’re very versatile, pack nicely and keeping them at home is not difficult.

I’ll write about swimming technique other day, I pinky promise.

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Some months after release, the rythim has settled a bit. Metacritic (and OpenCritic) are stable 88 and 87 and the team has shuffled enough now. Other projects are in the horizon, but, hey, between you and I … _ I kind of miss the production period._

This crash is something well known, the disk is on the shelves, and even nowadays, in the era of the Day-0-7-14-21 patch days, it’s a relief. We relax, we crash, and we start playing all that inmense TODO game library we had waiting for us in our backlogs.

I’ve been playing Deadly Tower of Monsters and I’m having a terrific time. Silly. Goofy, and undeniably fun. Actually it’s surprisingly difficult once you go beyond the third episode. Can recommend.

Have a good one!

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Here you have it, a humble homage to Jodorowsky’s “El Topo”:

Alejandro Jodorowsky is one of those creators I like to follow. If you know nothing about him, there is a documentary about his project to do a film adaptation of Dune that is well worth your time.

And a word of warning: this documentary, as all of his movies, goes weird quickly and hard. Take your time.

Going overboard for a GIF: Using Natron

As you know I like to use Blender everytime I have the opportunity. It’s amazingly fast and it simply does the job. If it has a drawback, I’d say that is the fact that it tries to cover absolutely every base. You can paint, model, animate, do some video edit, camera track, compo, … pretty complete.

But if what you want is posproduction software a la Nuke. There is another free software that is specialized in that: Natron. Heavily, ermh, inspired in Nuke. It can serve your production needs if you’re willing to invest the time and train in it.

As you can see in the shading network, I’m not doing anything fancy. Just adding some merges and switches. I don’t want to change the color or mask anything in that 8 secs piece. And, in essence is a first contact with it.

I must say that I’m pretty pleased. Obviously Nuke is year lights ahead in terms of polishing and tech. But I think is still interesting to keep this close if you plan to do any work with images and color.

The process in itself was as you can expect. First getting the raw footage as a sequence of frames (using Blender) Then adding the text animation into the frames, using Natron and back to blender to the final touches doing some final adjustments, and then, into GIMP. It’s a pretty simple stuff.

As usual the .gif itself was made with GIMP: indexed colors and reescaled to reduce the file size a little bit.

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My name is Carlos Bellido and I do code for a living. I’m currently living at Stockholm, employed by DICE. It happens that I like to swim quite a lot, hence the title.

I build production tools and general code at DICE